There are a lot of times that I feel happy when I’m with you. In short, I’m comfortable with you. Everytime I talk to you, my heart is pounding differently. Everytime you make a joke, you never fail to make me laugh and smile. Especially when I’m looking at you from a far distance, I don’t know, it just feel different. 😶 It’s kinda like having a stealth look at you and when you are trying to look at me, I quickly avoided eye contact with you. 🙈
I am getting used to look at you always and that I’m looking for you whenever I can’t see you. Everytime you go out, I always finding myself looking at the door waiting for you to come back. (haha I know it’s funny but I think I’m like a stalker). 🙈 I’m used that your always around, you’re always there, that my naked eyes can see you. Sigh…
Whenever we play our sport, I am happy because I can talk to you closely, we can make jokes and I can be with you for a short matter of time. Well, there are many times that I almost slip the words that I can’t handle. At least, it’s just on my mind because if I let it slip away I don’t know what would happen. But what I know is that there are boundaries between us and if it will be ignore there will be trouble. 😧😔
On the other side, I’m so happy that I met you in an unexpected time. We’re not that close before and I don’t even remember how we’ve become like that, it just so happened. I learned a lot from you. You’re more matured than I am. But despite that, I am thankful because you give happiness to my life.
I’m a shy type of person. I wanted people to see that I’m strong outside and I can do anything. But deep inside I am weak, I am fragile and I can lose. I don’t want people to criticize me for being like that. So I try my best to do anything. Even in sports, I wanted to play with all my heart and do the best I can. While about love, once I fall inlove shyness comes up. But there are also a time that I am confident, if I know the person well and then I will feel comfortable with that person.
But in LOVE, I can lose. As they say, when it comes to love, I become stupid. 😥
When will be the time that I won’t be called “stupid” in love?
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Marami ng pagkakataon na nakaramdam ako sayo ng sobrang saya, yung tipong ang gaan gaan ng pakiramdam ko, tuwing makakausap ka iba yung tibok ng puso ko, tuwing magbibiro ka napapatawa at napapangiti mo ko at lalo na sa tuwing tinititigan kita ng malayuan iba sa pakiramdam. Ewan. 😶 parang nakaw tingin, na di mo alam na tinitingnan kita tas pagtitingin ka na iiwas na ko. 🙈
Nasanay na akong natingin sayo palagi. Na lagi kang hinahanap pag nawala ka sa inuupuan mo o pwesto mo. Tuwing lumalabas ka napapatingin ako sa bawat bukas ng pinto kasi akala ko ikaw na yung darating. (haha nakakatawang isipin pero ganon na nga, stalker yata ako sayo). 🙈 At nasanay na rin akong nandyan ka palagi na nakikita ko. Hays…
Sa mga laro natin, ang saya ko kasi nakakausap ka ng malapitan, nagbibiruan at nakakasama ng matagal kahit dun lang. Marami ng beses na muntik na kong makabitaw ng mga salitang mahirap panghawakan. Buti at sa isip ko lang nabanggit. Kasi kung nabitawan ko yun. Hindi ko alam ang mangyayari. Kasi alam kong may boundaries at magkakagulo dahil dun. 😧😔
Masaya talaga ako at nakilala kita sa di inaasahang pagkakataon. Hindi naman tayo ganito kaclose noon. Di ko na nga maalala kung pano pero it just so happened. At marami rin akong natututunan mula sayo. You’re more matured than I am, syempre. Pero salamat nagkasigla uli ung buhay ko.
Mahiyain talaga ako. Pero ang pinapakita ko sa outside appearance ko ay matapang at malakas na kayang gawin ang lahat. But deep inside mahina ako, na talo ako. Kasi ayaw kong lokohin ako ng iba na ganon ako kaya I try my best na magawa ang mga dapat gawin kahit sa sports I wanted to play with all my heart and do the best I can. Kung sa love naman, shy talaga ako kasi once na naiinlove ako nahihiya ako sa lahat ng bagay basta about dun. May pagkakataon din namang confident kapag nakikilala ko na talaga at gumagaan na pakiramdam ko. Pero pag LOVE talaga. Talo ako. Sabi nga BOBO ako pagdating sa PAG IBIG. 😥
Kelan kaya yung time na di na ko magiging bobo pagdating sa pag ibig?